Not today

So much questions left unanswered
So much words unspoken
Can someone live with
the knowledge of being broken
Broken in every way, trust, compassion is lost every day

My life seems awkward, surreal
Someone tell me what’s the deal
Is it me? Am I being
afraid of the things I had
Or is it different, am I glad?
Is it over, was it there?
Do they trust or was it all a lie
A lie for life, a lie we live
with or is it what I really am?
Everytime I see you and say hi
I’m lying for who I really am…

I cannot seem to hold on,
cannot hold on to the
thoughts of being alone
Its like before,
if I still believe in that
‘cause I stopped believing
in what people say
Must have a reason… hopefully not, maybe just maybe… not today.